I Didn't Realize It, But I'm Ashamed

After every momentous day, I always take time to reflect. This time I reflect on another cycle, another year. I just celebrated my birth and realized I'm the happiest I've ever been.

I've caught myself a few times wanting to share with the world the adventures I've been on but stopped myself each time. I've given clues but never the full extent. I paused and asked myself why. Why am I stopping myself from sharing my happy moments?

And then it came to me. I was ashamed. I didn't want my friends or family to know I was happy because they, themselves were struggling. I didn't want to share because I was scared they would hate me. All of a sudden, I didn't feel relatable. I was ashamed of being joyous because it separated me from everyone else.

That's not to say that I haven't suffered. That's exactly what brought me on the path of spirituality in the first place. There were so many nights that I didn't want to continue on any longer. It was the only thing that resonated with my soul. I also want to be clear, that I didn't pursue spirituality as an escape from my body. I walked down the path so that I could return home back to me, and the power within.

My ongoing journey of spirituality is the commitment to the evolution of self.  That means understanding every facet of myself better and not being afraid of what I will uncover. For lack of a better word it means being courageous and stepping into the unknown to see who you've always been to find that you are the creator.

And I decided to create my own happiness.

When I caught myself feelings ashamed, I realized I needed to break that. I need to fully own the lifestyle I created. And hope that it inspires others to do the same.

To walk away from the confines of our mind that says things to us out of fear.

I went through many dark nights of the soul to arrive at this surprise moment of: "oh my god! I'm happy"! I've been manifesting everything that I've been wanting.

I hope this inspires you to do the same. To proudly show the world that you're happy because the world needs it.
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Everyday we are bombarded with information from the media such as the news, social, friends, work that are not joyous vibration. What do you think the percentage of information you receive daily is positive? It's not a lot.

So if you're happy or having a joyous moment PLEASE see my story as an example and SHARE IT! Break the noise of negativity with laughter, smiles, and fun!

The world needs your joy.

And please don't be ashamed to share it.

All my love,

Julie